Keep on smiling...for my sake

Here we go again. Why do you keep on reaching for that person when you know that you`ll end up hurting yourself ? Why, when it has broken your mind into many pieces ? You`ve been forgotten. No, that person comes to you to lean on your shoulders whithout knowing what you`ve been through. All that person can talk about is that person`s personal problems. Is it okay to cry over this matter ? Is it okay to get all depressed & kill yourself inside ? Is it okay to give up on everything because no one knows what you`re going through right now ? Yes, it is because this is my life. Better yet, this is LIFE. I need to get through all of this. Those endless cravings have made me even stronger, but I still get those terrible feelings of getting hurt & sufferings. So what if that person hurts me? It`s my own fault because I`m always keeping it for myself. Yes, I want that person to give him/herself all out on me & trust me with all that person`s heart. I want to make that person feel that he/she is not just another burden that I`m painfully carrying in my thoughts. I want he/she to feel that comfort will always follow that person wherever that person goes. Didn`t I clearly say that I won`t do anything that I love, but I will do everything for those who I love ? Everything`s worth it. So, just keep on smiling...for my sake.

Hehe.Being all emo here XD

OMaiGooo! Sick....of working ?

     Ohayo gozaimasu! *Bow* Yup, I`ve been working so hard for the past couple of weeks (with boxes TwT) & I ended up fainting so bad that I was rushed at the hospital. Yes, it`s normal cuz lately I had this illness & I had an operation. My body càn`t handle too much work & stress-I`m getting old!! (-_-``) - but I wanted to save up money for personal matters (also since I bought the 2nd full lengt album Lucifer of SHINee last week, I really NEED money). So, yeah, I worked like crazy everyday - like 15 hours, it`s not a REAL job like at Tim`s, that`s why- & did`nt get enough sleep. You could say school all over again, but even worst. So today my boss- who is actually my friend`s aunt - gave me the day off to relax & just to catch up with my sleep. So, you might be wondering how do I RELAX ? That`s easy. Get this, I`m doing a J/KDrama Marathon. Drama Mode!!. Yes, dramas& not animes, eventhough I love animes, & yes I`m watching when I should be sleeping. It just overwhelms me to watch dramas ALONE - anyways, I wasn`t that sleepy - & I can really express myself, & I mean REALLY express myself. When the actor in the drama is soo mean, it pisses me off & I start bad-mouthing about him- out loud. There`s also the fact that my past-time while watching a drama is yelling at the pc screen. Yes, yelling at a device! You could say, my favourite sport ever ? XD That`s how weird I am. Kekeke. Watching dramas relieves all my emotions that have been building up for a couple of weeks now. Yeah, I know it`s difficult to understand, but hey, I`m an artist! 

As you can see, I was watching on mysoju.com. I finally finished the Bad Family series. God, this is my favourite Korean drama so far. You could say number 1 ? (^w^)

I was enjoying my korean ginseng tea in my big bro`s room since I`m using his pc.. How ironic XD.

I didn`t only watch dramas, I also read a current book, Changeling, that I borrowed at the library. As you can see, I`m not that far since I just started reading monday.

Then, I was in my Boredom Mode. So, I drawed on my cute sketch book. Yay!

I SOOOO wanted to go outside since its so sunny, but my mom would kill me if ever she knew that I went out with my current state o.O. Annoying!! But that`s how concerned mom`s are. Hehe. So Imma leave it at that & Imma continue watching my unfinished J/KDrama marathon for now. See yah.

~ SHINee SHINee SHINee ~ (^_-)

Mont Tremblant ! WEEEEEeeeeh?

Okay so this past sunday, my dad invited me to go to Mont Tremblant with him & my lil half-bro. So yeah, I ended up taking his proposal, whinch I would usually just respond with a no, but I wanted to go since I`ve never been there...So I thought.Hmm. I actually went there about a year ago while i was on a field trip.In WINTER. Yes, I was snowboarding.But anyways yeah, I have`nt been there during summer. It wasn`t really that interesting.  

                                                                                                                     

Aigoo, it was soo hot that day. You can see the line for the cable car going up.God, it was a long wait, but it was worth it. Aishaah, look look at the mini waterfall/fountain thingy. Sooo pretty (^ w ^)

There`s my lil half-bro. Then the next pic is a scenery that you can see while you`re riding the casino cable car express hehe. Then there`s my dad`s back XD

Then finally, the casino. We actually waited outside since I`m still young (YES I AM NOT OLD!) & my dad went in to check the place out. He actually won around 200$ CAN. Hehe.